What was I thinking???

Not getting my hopes up.

How many times do you hear people utter these words-I am not going to get my hopes up. Their belief is that by not getting their hopes up they will not be disappointed or upset if things don't go their way.Can I just add right here that this is the silliest thing to do. Do you honestly think that you will want something less just because you are "not getting your hopes up"? Maybe you can, I don't know but for me it doesn't work that way. I want what I want and no amount of negative thinking is going to stop it. All the negative thinking does is make it harder for me to get it. I make a half hearted attempt and probably end up screwing everything up so that I can't get what I want. In essence, I ruin it for myself.Yes, I admit that there are some things that I don't get even if I really want them. But oh well, if I don't get what I want, it was obviously not what I needed. And usually something else pops up that I want so I move on to new, usually bigger and better things to hope for. Typically after going round and round I usually get something and it turns out to be way better than the original thing I had "hoped" for anyway. So all is well in the end anyway.To me, hoping and dreaming are essential to happiness. I can't sit by idly and let life pass me by. I am too afraid that I might miss out on something. I would rather try and fail then to never try at all. The thing that makes me the saddest is knowing that I didn't try. I don't like having regrets. I would much rather have a lot of failed attempts mixed in with a few successes than to have a pile of regrets at the end of the day.Last night after I put Turkey Butt in bed I was going over 2006 in my head. It was a long and tough year, there were lots of losses and gains, successes and failures. One thing that was missing from 2006 however was a pile of regrets. There was no feeling of I should have done this or I should have done that. I feel as if everything that has happened is just as it should be. All in all it was a very good year for me and I look forward to 2007. Life is good, even when it's bad.

Posted by Tammy D at 10:29 AM